It’s hard… it really is.

Me and Scott are patching things up I know most people think that I’m stupid but I love him and I care about him and we both want to make things work. There is a big trust issue for me with him right now because of what I saw, it will take time for that to come back I know it won’t come back over night but I hope he understands that and realises it. Things are incredibly hard at the moment but we are working things out and are trying to move forward. I just hope that he proves to me I am doing the right thing by giving him this chance and not make me look like a mug for giving him this chance. – The only thing that is getting me through this is how much I love him and care about him – If he throws it back in my face I’m cutting him out of my life for good because I can’t go through this again.

Today I went to a higher education conference, which has made me really think about this whole uni thing again. I have a lot of reading to do now and a booklet from college to fill out too.

I’m working tomorrow and need a lot of sleep before I’m remotely ready for being there… I’m so exhausted I can’t begin to describe it.

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Happy Birthday!

Today is my brother, Aaron’s, birthday. He is 14. I haven’t written anything for a few days because there hasn’t really been a lot to write about.

Yesterday I was at work again. It was unbelievably busy as the rota had been messed up so we were short staffed. So I ended up working all over the place, I worked in the ticket and main shop for most of the day with Haley and Scott, then for about an hour or so I got trained by Abbie on how to work in the ice cream kiosk, which turned out to be fairly simple! It was just so busy, apart from my lunch break I didn’t really stop until 6pm.

Once I left work I had to go down to Tescos with my Dad because I needed to get a present for Aaron and I wanted to pick up an external hard drive as they were on offer! I also picked up a mouse to use with my laptop. I also bumped into Kersha and her mum Nina, we had a good catch up and chat about loads of stuff.

I then went down to the Chinese and fish and chip shop with my Dad to get some tea.

This morning Aaron woke me up at 5am because he wanted to open his presents… I wasn’t happy seeing as it is my day off from work I wanted to be able to have a lie in. It didn’t happen although he did like the dvd I got him, so that was good.

Me and my Mum and Dad then went to Tescos (again!) to go and get some food as we don’t have a lot in our house, I wanted to get a new purse but I didn’t like any in Tescos so we went down to the factory shop and I was able to pick a really nice one up in there for £2 and I got two new pairs of plimsolls.

We then went to the beafeater to have a meal to celebrate Aaron’s birthday, everything took ages to arrive but the food was really good! I love the food there especially the chocolate fudge brownie sundaes.

Once we came home I’ve spent the evening trying to come up with some ideas for my own business with Scott and he’s come up with some really good stuff for me! I really appreciate it, he’s really good with ideas and helping me out with things like this. I feel really bad though because the last few days I’ve been really snappy with him because I’ve been so tired, and worn out from work and the lack of sleep I’ve been having. But I’m so glad he’s there for me through it all, and I’m so glad he puts up with everything he does from me because I love him so much.

Not a lot else to say really, back to work tomorrow!

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Plenty to do today

Today has been quite a busy day.

First thing this morning I spoke to Scott on skype, we had a really good chat so it was a nice way to start the morning off!

Then I had to bike to work which is 3.3 miles from my house it only took me 30 minutes to get there though which was a lot faster than I thought it would take me, it meant that I arrived an hour early for work! I had issues with my bike lock as it didn’t even work… It wasn’t too bad arriving to work early as Bethany arrived about 15 minutes after I did so I wasn’t on my own for long, we had a nice little chat and then went into work on time, checked the rota and waited for everyone to arrive.

We all walked down to the play barn apart from Rosie and Scott as they were working in the shop, as soon as we got in the door at the play barn Bethany got a phone call from May saying that I needed to go down to the shop, so I walked all the way back again.

Once I got in the shop I had full till training on the new till, there was a few people arriving to begin with but as we had bad weather it wasn’t that busy. As there wasn’t many people to admit into the park me and Rosie ended up bagging animal feed to sell, we had quite a good chat while we were doing it too. Then May cam and asked if I could help clean the fish filter with her so we spent quite a while making sure that was totally clean and hosing it down, it was quite funny as May kept worrying about me getting my shoes wet. Then I got asked to catch a guinea pig which was quite easy, it got taken out to an event. When I came back into the shop Rosie was going home because she felt ill so then I spent a while selling tickets and various other items in the shop.

I got to have my lunch at 2pm and went outside with Megan and Bethany and ate my lunch while they had their fags, as their lunch finished before mine we went in early and I finished my lunch inside. When I finished my lunch break Bethany had come down from the play barn to help out in the shop. We spent a while filling up more bags of feed to sell as the shop was really quiet. I was then sent off to go do litter picking which took ages as people seem to find it really difficult to put their rubbish in the bins! Once I had done that I did various other little jobs in the shop, tiding up and things like that. Then May showed me how to clean the outside toilets round the park and the ball pit that took quite a while today and isn’t the best job to be given at work! When I had finished that I went back into the shop and helped Bethany to make some keyrings, then I got to go home!

My Dad came to pick me and my bike up so that I didn’t have to bike all the way home which was pretty nice. My phone started playing up so since about 6.15 I haven’t been receiving texts properly, I think I may have sorted it now but I don’t know…

Scott has been to hospital again, he’s cracked his knee cap… I really hate it when he’s hurt himself coz it really worried me especially as when we’re so far apart I can’t do anything to help.

Been collecting some more software onto my laptop, I now have mac’s photobooth on my windows laptop and I also have sony vegas pro.

Not a lot else to say really, just watching Manchester United in the champions league final and then I’m going to bed because I’m really tired.

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