It’s been a while

It really has been way too long since I’ve posted anything here…

Well I’m now officially in year 13, I only have 10 months left of college, it’s crazy it really is! We’ve already started applying for uni, my choices have all changed slightly – hopefully going to uni will work out really well well for me and Scott too which will be a bit of a bonus! The whole process is a bit scary and confusing but, and it’s crazy how soon the forms all have to be in.

I’m finally able to drop Politics this year so now I’m down to the 3 subjects I actually enjoy – although I’m not sure if I’ll enjoy media all that much because I don’t really get on with anyone in my class…

It’s Scott’s first day at his college today – I’m really looking forward to hearing how it’s gone!

I am so happy with everything and everyone in my life at the moment, last night I was just sat thinking about how much Scott has changed my life for the better and has helped me achieve so much. We’ve been together for 17 months! The time has gone so fast – I’m really looking forward to seeing him in October again.

There is so much happening of the next year and I’m looking forward to every bit of it. I’m hoping Scott can stay in Cambridge for New Year this year but I don’t know I was hoping to arrange something special for us but I don’t know if I’ll be able to. It will be really good if I can do what I want to but if not I know we’ll still be able to spend time together either in Cambridge or in Dorset.

So far things have really picked up and I am genuinely really happy, I’m so lucky to have an amazing boyfriend, good friends, and a truly perfect family!

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Just one of those days

Today I’ve been in a really odd mood, I’m thinking about things way to much that I would normally think about. It really isn’t like me to be like this.

I was really worried this morning because I woke up to a text from Joe saying that our ICT exam was today and not tomorrow. Turns out it is actually tomorrow, I figured that out after 20 mins of panicking.

Once I realised I was actually going to be home all day I decided to just chill out completely all day, something I haven’t been able to do in a while, I ended up doing some data entry work (earnt £9.10, I’ve worked out that this month i should earn over £200, will be pretty cool if that happens!!) and I’ve spent hours playing on zoo tycoon, so basically I’ve wasted the day.

I have spent quite a bit of the day talking to Scott which has been good and will really make up for the fact I can’t talk to him for practically the whole day tomorrow as I’m in isolation all day…. I’m really not looking forward to it. I’ve discovered that he looks REALLY good in a proper shirt, I think he should wear them more often.

I’ve been looking at starting driving lessons again but I really do think it’ll be way to expensive for the time being, especially when I’m trying to save for uni.

Me and Scott have started to have major problems again tonight. He had ago at me for being upset, which I can’t really help if that’s how I feel, I thought he would have been there for me but instead he had a go at me. I don’t think I’m allowed to have feelings anymore. He posts all our problems on facebook and that kind of annoys me because our relationship is private, I don’t want everyone knowing all our problems like that… Plus I found out that the chain I got him for us being together a year, he never got fixed after it got broken, that kind of hurt me a little bit because that was supposed to be something special, but it can’t of meant that much to him if he’s left it this long. I wish things like this would stop happening between us…

Milly has invited me out with everyone for a Chinese, but I don’t think I’ll be able to go as if I do I won’t be able to afford to do anything with Scott and Stacey when they come to stay in Cambridge.

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I got a certificate

Today at college it seemed to be a complete waste of time.

First lesson, business, all we did was some revisions sheets that we had done before.

Second lesson was actually worth going in for I got my certificate for the health course I have been doing, plus i got my t-shirt. Plus our photo is going to be in the college magazine.

Third lesson, media, all we did was play singstar. Me, Shona and Becka best Joe and Saffy it was good fun, but really a waste of an hour and a half.

Last lessons was ICT and it was yet again really pointless. All we did was go through stuff we had done before.

I’m really tired now and just want to cuddle up in bed with Scott… I can’t wait to see him. I really miss him. I’m so glad that we have sorted everything out and that it’s all good between us again.

I’m going out tomorrow night with work, I’m going to my friend Bethany’s (who I haven’t seen since leaving secondary school) house, then we’re getting the train together, then meeting everyone at Nando’s and going bowling. Should be a really good night! I’m really looking forward to it. Although I’m working Saturday and Sunday so lack of sleep may kick in at some point.

Bout it really…

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Exams, stress & more stress

 

Today has been surprisingly good although I’ve been tired all day which hasn’t been to great. Plus it was a full day at college without any frees, although I had a laugh with everyone which made it feel as though the day was passing really fast.

I have my media exam tomorrow, I’m starting to get really nervous for it I don’t feel prepared at all… BUT I have a free first thing tomorrow which means I can revise then.

I have reached just over 900 entries for my data entry job this month, I’m quite pleased with that considering I have really spent much time doing it.

Me and Scott still aren’t great but things are improving although I have just found out next summer he isn’t going to be around at all, add that to the fact we aren’t going to be able to speak/ see each other for 3 weeks this summer, its just…. We don’t get to spend the time together I would want us to anyways now we won’t get to spend the time we could actually be able to spend together. Its frustrating/ annoying/ upsetting…. I don’t know. But there things Scott wants to do so I can’t get in the way of that. Plus next summer is going to be really important for me because it’s the summer before I go off to uni so it would have been nice to have him around for that, but he’s got things he wants to do so…. These things happen, just can’t focus on them too much until they happen. Plus I was hoping that maybe we could have gone away together as I would be 18 by then but we can’t seeing as he won’t be around next summer and I didn’t want to tell Scott because I was hoping to surprise him bit late for all that now.

Not a lot else to say really, need to catch up on my sleep!

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It’s been a long day so there is a long post

Well, what did the day have in store for me today?

Firstly I had a fire drill at college just before our first lesson was due to start. It was pretty cold but Lizzie was happy because she was in first thing but was free till 1.05pm and she was going to be on her own for about 4 hours while everyone was in their lessons., so for her the fire drill meant she had about 5 minutes longer with me and Abbey than she would otherwise of had.

Then I had business, I love my business lessons, they are always really interesting but they always seem to pass really fast which is really annoying. I really can’t wait until I am able to hopefully continue studying it at university. I don’t know why but I just love the subject.

My second lesson is actually scheduled as a free on Thursdays but for the last few weeks I have been taking part in this health workshop which means I will become a ‘health champion’. Basically I’ve been taking sexual awareness workshops, alcohol awareness workshops, drug awareness workshops, and internet safety workshops. In two weeks time we will become qualified to give other people our advice on how to stay safe and answer their questions about those topics, plus we get a t-shirt so people can identify who we are. Plus it’s something to add to my personal statement and my CV.

Lunch was pretty funny me and Lizzie were fairly hyper and just spent most of it messing around quite a lot, it was pretty funny… those moments where you had to be there.

Media seemed to drag quite a bit today which is quite unusual, normal it goes really fast. I don’t know why, I guess it maybe because I wasn’t really enjoying what we were doing in class.

ICT was so funny, I’ve finished all of my coursework so I spent the time helping other people finish theirs, well mainly Sam. He only had half of it done but we managed to get it so he was completely finished by the end of the lesson which was pretty good. Me, him and Jess had a pretty good laugh looking at some of the jobs on gumtree.com some of the stuff we found was pretty unusual to say the least, but there again so was some of our conversations that we were having. Matt’s story about his finger and how he hurt it had me and Kirsty in stiches for about 5/ 10 minutes it was so funny, he just couldn’t stop laughing, it was just his face and all his gestures while he was explaining it.

Since I’ve got home I’ve had a really nice long relaxing bath and settled down to do some of my college work that I have been putting off for a while, watched Kerry Katona the next chapter and gossip girl, I love those two shows!

I have my trial on Saturday and I’m bricking it, but I’m also really looking forward to it. If I get this job it would mean so much to me because it would show that someone really does believe in me, plus it will mean I have a bit of money coming in that I can save for university and preparing for it.

It’s a shame I won’t be able to talk to Scott tomorrow night (he’s going out with his mates) I’m probably going to get really nervous tomorrow and it would have been good to have him to talk to to stop me thinking about all the bad things that could potentially happen.

I have  a short day at college tomorrow, I love Fridays! Plus that does mean I have time to prepare for Saturday. I’m bricking it…

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Brand New Blog

Some of you may have come a long from my old blog and some of you may be brand new people who have decided to join me and my random goings on.

Today has been a pretty short day at college, I’ve only had two lessons media and ICT. Media was a pretty chilled out lesson but ICT was quite full on with a mock test. I don’t think I did all that well in probably down to the fact I forgot all about it and didn’t revise…

I don’t have any data entry work to do which means I’m not going to earn any money today. But I have been doing it in my spare time the last two days so it’s nice to have a break. I’ve also got my trial on Saturday at Shepreth Wildlife Park which my friend Bethany managed to get for me, hopefully I make a good impression and get the job.

I’ve been looking at volunteering opportunities but there isn’t anything around here, which is really annoying as I wanted to really do something where I was helping someone else.

Anyways that’s it about me for now

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