Little fed up

Another day where I feel like I haven’t spoken to Scott properly, but he’s at Tom’s funeral and is supporting his sister so I respect that. He text me earlier saying that he wasn’t going to come and visit anymore, I really couldn’t believe what he was saying after I’d booked time off from work and made it so that I could see him… Apparently it was because of an argument with his parents over his sister, but it’s been sorted out and he’s is still coming.

My heads been all over the place the last few days and loads of little things that wouldn’t normally get to me have…Just gotta work through things one at a time and see where things go. But some people are really starting to get to me, I’ve had enough of people taking me for granted and just expecting me to be there whenever they need me and walking all over me, well it’s not going to be like that anymore. I’m fed up of all the stupid arguments. I’m tired of putting myself last so that I can keep everyone else happy, well it isn’t going to be like that anymore I’m going to start doing things for me. I’m sick and tired of feeling like I’m not good enough, it’s time to move on from everything in the past and move on into the future with the people I want to be in it.

I’m supposed to have a basketball trial tomorrow but I’m still not sure whether I want to go, I don’t really know if it’s worth it.

I’m just looking forward to Friday – if Scott still comes…

- OVER AND OUT -

Rest In Peace

3 people have died in 2 days, its quite hard to believe….

The first of those people is Tom Roy, he was really special to Stacey (Scott’s sister) as he was her boyfriend. I only really met him once but he seemed like such a decent guy and really made her happy and for someone who has been through as much as she has to have someone like Tom was everything she needed and it’s so cruel for him to have that taken away from her.

The second person is James Clennell my friend Bethany’s friend I never met him, but from what she has said to me she has a lot of memories with him. So really my thoughts go out to his family and Bethany and anyone who knew him.

The third person is Ryan Dunn from Jackass. This is different from the two people I’ve already written about as he is famous, but like those I have already written about but like those I have mentioned he has a family and has friends but also a lot of fans that will be sad to here about his passing.

I’ve never lost anyone close to me, thankfully, so I can’t begin to think of what any of these people are going through, but I know they have a lot of people supporting them and helping them get through it, for some people that is a short time and for others it is a longer process and takes a longer time, but they will never forget those who they have lost because of the memories and the impact they have had on their lives.

REST IN PEACE, YOU’LL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN