Just one of those days

Today I’ve been in a really odd mood, I’m thinking about things way to much that I would normally think about. It really isn’t like me to be like this.

I was really worried this morning because I woke up to a text from Joe saying that our ICT exam was today and not tomorrow. Turns out it is actually tomorrow, I figured that out after 20 mins of panicking.

Once I realised I was actually going to be home all day I decided to just chill out completely all day, something I haven’t been able to do in a while, I ended up doing some data entry work (earnt £9.10, I’ve worked out that this month i should earn over £200, will be pretty cool if that happens!!) and I’ve spent hours playing on zoo tycoon, so basically I’ve wasted the day.

I have spent quite a bit of the day talking to Scott which has been good and will really make up for the fact I can’t talk to him for practically the whole day tomorrow as I’m in isolation all day…. I’m really not looking forward to it. I’ve discovered that he looks REALLY good in a proper shirt, I think he should wear them more often.

I’ve been looking at starting driving lessons again but I really do think it’ll be way to expensive for the time being, especially when I’m trying to save for uni.

Me and Scott have started to have major problems again tonight. He had ago at me for being upset, which I can’t really help if that’s how I feel, I thought he would have been there for me but instead he had a go at me. I don’t think I’m allowed to have feelings anymore. He posts all our problems on facebook and that kind of annoys me because our relationship is private, I don’t want everyone knowing all our problems like that… Plus I found out that the chain I got him for us being together a year, he never got fixed after it got broken, that kind of hurt me a little bit because that was supposed to be something special, but it can’t of meant that much to him if he’s left it this long. I wish things like this would stop happening between us…

Milly has invited me out with everyone for a Chinese, but I don’t think I’ll be able to go as if I do I won’t be able to afford to do anything with Scott and Stacey when they come to stay in Cambridge.

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Bit of a boring day…

There hasn’t really been much happening today, I was at work.

Work – well it wasn’t too busy, just busy enough so that we didn’t get too bored doing nothing, although we did get to come home an hour early as there wasn’t anything to do. I’ve been invited out on the work thing on Friday, a meal at Nandos and bowling, if I go it means I’ll get to see Bethany, she’s the one who got me the job. I’m working Saturday and Sunday next week, it could be pretty tiring. I didn’t manage to get any pictures of any of the animals because I only had a half hour lunch and I didn’t eat it outside, next time maybe…

I’ve entered the new pepsi competition a zillion times and haven’t won anything, by the time (if) I ever win I might as well of just saved the money and I would have £300.

Got college tomorrow, a full day, not really looking forward to it although I’ve only got this week left then I’m on study leave.

Me and Scott haven’t really spoken much the last few days. Things are okay between us, but they aren’t great/ how they used to be. I guess I’ve just got to give it time and see what happens. We didn’t really talk last night, then we ended up having an argument. We’ve not going to be able to talk properly tonight because it’s his Dads birthday on Tuesday and Scott’s family are having a party for him. In some ways it feels as though we aren’t as close as we used to be, I just wish we could have a ‘normal’ relationship without the distance because sometimes it really strains things and makes things seem a million times worse.

I had a great conversation with my ex Louis just talking about loads of stuff last night/ first thing this morning. Its nice to catch up with someone when you haven’t seen or spoken to them in a long time. I also had a really nice conversation with this guy called Joe who is in my ICT class, Joe is lovely and is always a laugh, he’s the one who cheers me up whenever me and Scott have an argument, plus he’s just a really great guy.

Bout it really…

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