Sometimes I feel like everything and everyone in my life are trying to make me move along and decide things faster than I want to. Everyone wants to make plans and decisions, sometimes I don’t want my life to be all mapped out I just want to see where it goes.
College just seems to be passing by so quickly and we are making so many decisions about our future that are going to effect the rest of our lives, I just wish I knew if I was making the right ones, or at least for it slow down a little so that I can think about the decisions I have to make a little more.
It’s like Scott has everything planned for us, already he wants us to be married and have a family, it’s like I’m 17. I want those things too but I’m not planning all of that yet I want to enjoy what is going on now not be planning my whole future out… I guess it’s just scary to think about all of that sometimes, I don’t know how to tell him that we’ve being moving quite fast in our relationship the last few months and I want it to slow down a little without hurting his feelings or hi feeling like I’m pushing him away. I know we’ve been together for a over a year but I feel kind of like my whole life is being decided for me, I don’t mean that in a bad way I just wish sometimes that we could slow down a little and just enjoy our relationship and what we have rather than deciding what is going to happen in the future…
I wish sometimes I could just take everyday as it comes but everyone seems to be wanting me to make some sort of plan or commitment to do with my future, I just wish it would all slow down a little.
I think all of this thinking about life is to do with all of my exams at the moment… but I’ve been feeling weird and confused for a while about things but I’ve only just really realised what is going on in my head.
I want to take a step back from everything and take a look at everything in a different light so I can really see what is going on without someone pressuring me to make a decision about something.
I feel like I’m in the fast lane at the moment and I just wish someone would but the brakes on everything just for a day or so… just so I can think.
- OVER AND OUT -
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